Lately, I have been sluggish as hell creatively. It gets me feeling upset and guilt-ridden. My main deal for the longest time has been drawing. I still draw often, but my high level of patience has shrunk. I used to draw for hours and hours til I got the job done. Now I'll draw, take a healthy amount of breaks, and just... get beyond tired of what I'm doing.

A lot of this has to do with 2 things: my art is a lot more "detailed" and "complex" now... and also I feel crappy doing a leisurely thing like drawing when I don't have a job. Like... I'll think, "hey, what are you DOING?? You should be job hunting!!!"

Fuck. Being jobless makes me feel like a zero. When I had a job, I felt important. Like I'm valuable. Ugh...

Weeeelllll that's all for now.

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